Posts by Duchess61

went on a robert mitchum binge after watching el dorado...pursued and man with a gun

My case is a bit out of the ordinary. Had some sort of night terror attacks when I was very young. My Dad got tired of me crying outside their door and it was the 60's. A therapist? Hell no! Mom and me (there were 6 other children) slept downstairs on the couch. I had inherited her "lack of a need for sleep". When I was "put" to bed something went wrong in my head. ANYWAY. The way it worked, for about two years, was I would be sent into the living room at my regular bedtime and lay on the couch while my older brothers and sisters watched TV in the den. When they all went to sleep Mom would come in and open up the couch, get crackers and we'd start watching old black and white movies till I eventually fell asleep. I never had trouble getting up in the morning so this wasn't a problem. I fell in love with ALL the old movie stars, but decided John Wayne was the one I would marry. First childhood trauma? My Mom got sick of hearing me say it and told me I couldn't because he was as "old as grandpa". First childhood rebellion? Called my Mom a big, fat liar, stamped my foot, told her I'd do what I said I'd do and stormed off. Waited until I got to my room to cry...Hell, even when I was a punk rocker I loved John Wayne...as a graduate film student I loved John Wayne...I have always and will always love John Wayne...and when my mom passed away early this year I "retreated to the womb of Wayne" and spent a week watching John Wayne movies non-stop. And there you have it!